Monthly Archives: February 2016

Wow The Journey Takes A Turn

MarkAngelo: The Search For Truth

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It seems like forever since I last wrote a blog. I am happy to report that after much searching and hitting several brick walls, Lynna and I finally found a place to call our home. I am originally from Florida, but since the last 2 years I have been away, so much has changed, and that includes the rental situations. The soaring prices and scams made it almost impossible to rent a place, we ended up staying in hotels paying exuberant prices in areas that were less than acceptable and found ourselves almost rethinking our move.

For starters we had to rent a storage to place our belongings in fear of having our car vandalized and after a typical down pore and weather system, our little Trixie (we named our car I know, lol)  got soaked due to the compromised rubber seals from the carrier we had placed on her…

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Wow The Journey Takes A Turn

MarkAngelo: The Search For Truth

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It seems like forever since I last wrote a blog. I am happy to report that after much searching and hitting several brick walls, Lynna and I finally found a place to call our home. I am originally from Florida, but since the last 2 years I have been away, so much has changed, and that includes the rental situations. The soaring prices and scams made it almost impossible to rent a place, we ended up staying in hotels paying exuberant prices in areas that were less than acceptable and found ourselves almost rethinking our move.

For starters we had to rent a storage to place our belongings in fear of having our car vandalized and after a typical down pore and weather system, our little Trixie (we named our car I know, lol)  got soaked due to the compromised rubber seals from the carrier we had placed on her…

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A Dream I Had Last Night

Lynna's Life

Hi everyone, I have so much to share about what has happened since I last wrote my thoughts for all of you to read here.  OMG, lots has happened since then and I have so many stories and experiences to share with you all about that but I am going to have to hold off on that for now.  Why, you ask?  Well, simply because I had a dream last night.

You all know how that goes when you have a dream that is crystal clear and so life-like that you wonder if it just happened when you leave it?  Last night was one of those times and this particular dream impacted me in a powerful way.  First off, I have to tell you that lately I have been dreaming like Joseph from the Old Testament bible story.  He was labeled a dreamer by his 10 other brothers because he…

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Silver City Memories

Lynna's Life

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One day left, that is all that is left of my stint in Silver City, New Mexico.  It seems like only yesterday that I was brought here by Maritza.  It had only been a couple of weeks before that day that I was even introduced to her through a friend on YouTube.  She stole my heart from the first hello and I knew then over the phone that my life would never be the same.  It was because of her that I was able to meet this wonderful little town.

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So there I was, traveling in a stranger’s car, a kind-hearted trans woman who had offered to take Maritza to the hospital that I was staying at which was four hours away in El Paso, Texas.  There I was in a body brace and neck brace, sitting kind of crumpled up in the front seat as Maritza cradled my head…

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How I Am Feeling

MarkAngelo: The Search For Truth

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Many people ask these days how I have been feeling since my detransition? Well to tell you the truth, I have not really thought too much about it, I mean, I know I am fine in so many ways, but I have not really dig deep, really deep, to find out what is going on inside after so many years on Testosterone and not on any HRT for the past 3 months. I have always had the ability to tune things out, not allow people or things to hurt me, I shut off like a light switch, it’s has always been an easy thing for me to do. Furthermore, I find it’s a great defense mechanism, and one that allows me to deal with things when I am ready to do so.

I have a very analytical personality, one that allows me to analyze things in life. Yet another side…

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Full Circle

MarkAngelo: The Search For Truth

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Transitioning has been a tool for my spiritual growth. I have learned so many things about me, from my likes and dislikes, to my inner most needs. Transitioning has also helped me through my asbergers and other behavioral issues that were brought into the forefront while facing many of the challenges in my life. I know I still have may things to work through, but I feel that I have finally been able to come full circle.

The many relationships I have had as Mark were challenging and there to help me evolve and grow as a human being. I have faced many dark nights and issues that I did not want to see, but was forced to, but grateful they happened. I have now learn that I am the most important person and that I don’t need to place myself second anymore. I am worthy of love and to…

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Detransitioning, Now What?

MarkAngelo: The Search For Truth

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Since last November, I reconnected with feelings that started back in May of last year and then finally I proceeded with my detransition process. So many  of you may ask what now, how can you undo all of the changes you created? Will you get breast implants, and how will you get rid of your beard and body hair? Will your hair grow back? These are just a few of the questions I have gotten from those that know me, and to be honest they have also hovered over my mind as well.  It took 6 months from me to change from Maritza to Mark, hormone therapy took 3 months and I had a full blown beard, my body hair sprouted just like that wonderful Christmas present most do not want, you know the one, the Shia pet. My voice although always deep when I was living as a female…

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Life In A Flannelgraph

Lynna's Life

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I have spent a great deal of my life trying to figure out the truth.  From a young age I was asking the type of questions that most little kids wouldn’t bother with.  I was told from the time that I was able to talk about this God who loved me and who sent his son to die for me.  I was five years old at that little spanish church in Santa Ana when I raised my little hand in Sunday school and confessed my sins and became a Christian.  The thing is though that I still had questions that still had no answers.  Questions like: “Why am I here?” and “Is there really life after we die?”  My new faith had tidy little answers accompanied with nice little flannel-graph stories to help me understand it all.

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The funny thing about the flannelgraph is that you can make the characters…

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